Can you believe that we’re pretty much half way through January already?! It’s crazy to think how fast time flies. It’s like the quote by C.S. Lewis:
“Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different?”
As I sit here in bed, listening to faint keys in the background play Disney’s Piano Collection on possibly one of the coldest nights ever *wonders why it’s not snowing*, I can’t help but sit and reflect. The Truth Diaries, first and foremost, was always meant to be a Fashion, Beauty and Lifestyle blog. I created my blog back in 2014 as a 21 year old girl who was coming out of her battle with clinical depression. Clinical depression is when there is a chemical imbalance in your brain. My depression wasn’t caused by any type of traumatic event or loss in my life; it came out of nowhere. My life at the time was pretty much perfect; great family, great friends, great relationship with God… everything. I went to sleep one night in August 2012 feeling happy, excited and at peace with everything in my life and then, BOOM… I woke up with clinical depression. Of course, at the time I didn’t know what it was; I didn’t know what was wrong with me, and I thought I was going to be trapped in my mind in the horrific state that it was for the rest of my life. (continued below…)
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I lost my passion for everything. I was a complete shell of myself. I wasn’t living; I was a lifeless body that shed tears 24/7 (literally), was plagued by lies in my mind and felt nothing but fear of the future. Fast forward a year or so (2013) and I started feeling again. I was starting to fall back in love with my pre-depression passions (fashion, investing in people, photography media, etc.). Not only that, but I also gained many more passions (beauty, gluten-free living, cooking, writing etc.).
My blog launched on Saturday 22nd February 2014 and since then, it’s been a crazy, whirlwind (almost) three years. Most of you have followed along with my life on Instagram where I love to share with you all not only my day-to-day style, but a glimpse into my life. Whether that be God, church, family, friends, it’s all on there, somewhere! If you’re one of my gorgeous friends on Instagram, you’ll know that a lot has happened over the past year or so. You’ll have seen my up’s and my down’s, my highs and my lows… but one thing has always remained the same. God is constant.
It’s crazy to see how God can take your life and pull a fairy godmother transformation on it. Literally, He turned my life around from something that would be too farfetched to write a fiction novel about to a reality that I can’t quite believe is mine (in a good way). (continued below…)
I am forever reminded of a message gave at Rick Warren’s church, Saddleback.
God will give you double for your trouble. He will bless you with 100x what you lost if you keep Him FIRST in your life. Not 2x, not 10x but ONE HUNDRED TIMES.
…all I can say is, A-to the-MEN! God blessed me unimaginably. His timing is so perfect and our timing is just sooo not. His plan is far greater than the plan that we try to piece together ourselves… somehow thinking that we can do a better job?! We’re so weird as humans.
Anyway, what I’m saying is that life is good because God is good. He removes the toxic and replaces with the safe, the gentle and the what dreams are made of type of things. I’m falling asleep tonight thankful that God knows the desires of your heart and delivers them in a package even more wonderful, more magnificent, and a heck of a lot more dreamy that you ever imagined. God answers prayer. If you’re struggling, don’t run from Him. Run to Him.
I hope you all have an amazing Sunday and week ahead! Follow my Instagram (@nickielise), where I’m sure you’ll be seeing a lot more of the pieces that join together to complete the puzzle of my life. I can’t wait to keep sharing with you all… piece by piece.
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